Go ahead and rip my heart its not there anymore tough..what you'll find its an empty hole with broken pieces of broken glass that turns to dust and wind and chaos, rain and disguised shadows, not even stone even that its gone now nothing left to hurt or love, to stab or betray, to need or not, i am a lonely warrior... - M.Filip
Life is painful but we can change it.. death is painful but we cant do nothing about it than avoid
Tuesday, August 28, 2012
Friday, July 20, 2012
Endless Love
Jackie Chan - Endless Love
Release me from this mysterious waiting
the stars are falling; the wind is blowing.
Finally I can hold you in my arms.
Two hearts beating together.
Believe me that my heart has never-change
waiting a thousand year, You have my promise
No matter how many cold winter have passed
I will never let you go.
Now hold my hands, and close your eyes
Please think about the days when we were in love.
We loved each other too much, it caused us such pain
We can’t even say “I love you”
Every night my heart aches.
I never stop thinking of you.
I am used to being alone for such a long time
And I face it with a smile.
Believe me, I choose to wait.
Even though it’s painful, I won’t leave.
Only your tenderness can save me
From the endless cold.
Let the love in our hearts
Become a blossoming flower
We can pass through time, never bowing our heads,
And never giving up our dream.
We never forget our promise.
Only true love follows us
as we travel through the endless space and time.
Love is the only myth that exist in the hearts that never change.
Thursday, July 19, 2012
7 July
It was beautiful and absolutely perfect, I couldn’t believe
that he came up with this, he was more
romantic than I thought. The time stopped for a moment...
"Hey...” He said looking at me. I could see in his eyes
that there was something wrong.
“What is it?” I asked unsure.
“There is something I need to tell you that I’ve wanted to say to you for a long time now… and it’s been killing me. So... here it goes.” I stood there for a second... “I can’t believe I’m doing this.”
“What is it?...” I felt my heart begin to skip.
"… I love you. I have for a long time… I just never got the chance or rather...I was way to scared to tell you. I don’t want this to change us... and I’m not looking for you to say it back... I just I can’t keep going without telling you this, cause it will make me sick...” He stopped and simply looked at me. I did not know what to do or what to say.
“…” I was in shock.
“Like I said I’m not looking for you to say it back, I just want you to know.” He flashed me a smile and slowly turned around.
I stood there petrified. What was this going to do to us? Would it change everything? Of course it would, I was just too afraid to see it clearly or even think about it. I began to walk and I started to realize that this whole time somewhere inside of me I had feelings for him too, I had just repressed them. I was scared but, I guess it’s true that you do fall for your best friend. I looked up and he was waiting for me, all of a sudden I was running. He saw me and began to walk my way and.... and in an instant I was holding and kissing him.
“I love you.” I said with a smile stretched across my face.
I could see in his eyes that he was astonished yet as happy as could be. That amazing night I will forever remember because it was the happiest day of my life
“What is it?” I asked unsure.
“There is something I need to tell you that I’ve wanted to say to you for a long time now… and it’s been killing me. So... here it goes.” I stood there for a second... “I can’t believe I’m doing this.”
“What is it?...” I felt my heart begin to skip.
"… I love you. I have for a long time… I just never got the chance or rather...I was way to scared to tell you. I don’t want this to change us... and I’m not looking for you to say it back... I just I can’t keep going without telling you this, cause it will make me sick...” He stopped and simply looked at me. I did not know what to do or what to say.
“…” I was in shock.
“Like I said I’m not looking for you to say it back, I just want you to know.” He flashed me a smile and slowly turned around.
I stood there petrified. What was this going to do to us? Would it change everything? Of course it would, I was just too afraid to see it clearly or even think about it. I began to walk and I started to realize that this whole time somewhere inside of me I had feelings for him too, I had just repressed them. I was scared but, I guess it’s true that you do fall for your best friend. I looked up and he was waiting for me, all of a sudden I was running. He saw me and began to walk my way and.... and in an instant I was holding and kissing him.
“I love you.” I said with a smile stretched across my face.
I could see in his eyes that he was astonished yet as happy as could be. That amazing night I will forever remember because it was the happiest day of my life
Thursday, May 3, 2012
Quenta Sillimarion – Of Beren and Luthien
Of piercing, opening of treachery,
Revealing, uncovering, betraying.
Then sudden Felagund there swaying,
Sang in answer of song a staying,
Resisting, battling against power,
Of secrets kept, strength like a tower,
And trust unbroken, freedom, escape,
Of changing and of shipting shape,
Of snares eluded, broken traps,
The prison opening, the chain that snaps,
Backwards and forwards swayed their song.
Reeling and foundering as ever more strong,
The chanting swelled, Felagund fought,
And all the magic and might he brought,
Of Elvenesse into his words,
Softly in the gloom they heard the birds,
Singing afar in Nargothrond,
The sighing of the Sea beyond,
Beyond the western world, on sand,
On sand of pearls in Elvenland,
Then the gloom gathered, darkness growing.
In Valinor, the red blood flowing,
Beside the Sea, where Noldor slew,
The foamriders, the stealing drew,
Their white ships with their white sails,
From lamplit heavens. The wind wails,
The wolf howls. The ravens flee.
The ice mutters in mouths of the Sea.
The captives sad in Angband mourn,
Thunder rumbles, the fires burn-
And Finrod fell before the throne.
Monday, April 30, 2012
Chaos.
Discutie intre doi baieti:
- M-am despartit de ea.
- De ce?
- E doar.. prea mult pentru mine.
- Ce vrei sa spui? Cu ce-a gresit?
- Pai pentru inceput e obsesia pentru cum arata. Mereu sa arate bine, ii ia o vesnicie sa se imbrace. E nesigura…
- Deci i-ai frant inima doar pentru ca voia sa-ti mentina interesl? Sa-ti arate ce fata ai langa tine?
- Mda… oricum devenea stresanta. Ma suna toata ziua ca unde si cu cine sunt, sa nu beau, sa nu fumez. Ma enerva…
- Deci i-ai frant inima pentru ca ii pasa de tine? Pentru ca nu vrea sa te piarda?
- Pai… mereu plange daca zic ceva siropos sau la un film. E prea sensibila, omule.
- Deci i-ai frant inima pentru ca are sentimente? Pentru ca voia sa te auda cum ii spui ca o iubesti?
- Ei bine, devenea repede geloasa. Nu puteam nici sa vorbesc cu alte fete, trebuia sa ma ascund de ea.
- Deci i-ai frant inima pentru ca voia sa fi doar al ei? Credea ca esti de incredere, dar tu ai mintit, iar ea putea afla mai tarziu si putea sa sufere mai mult. Ea isi dorea doar ca baiatul pe care ea il iubeste sa o iubeasca doar pe ea.
- Dar…
- Te-ai despartit de ea pentru ca e prea buna pentru tine? Pentru ca iti voia doar binele? Ea e terminata acum pentru ca tu esti egoist. Mandru?
- I-am frant inima pentru ca.. nu stiam ce se intampla. Ce se intampla cu mine, frate?
- Ai pierdut fata care te-a iubit cum niciuna nu o va mai face. Vezi? Tu nu ai vrut-o pe ea, dar ea te-a vrut doar pe tine.
- M-am despartit de ea.
- De ce?
- E doar.. prea mult pentru mine.
- Ce vrei sa spui? Cu ce-a gresit?
- Pai pentru inceput e obsesia pentru cum arata. Mereu sa arate bine, ii ia o vesnicie sa se imbrace. E nesigura…
- Deci i-ai frant inima doar pentru ca voia sa-ti mentina interesl? Sa-ti arate ce fata ai langa tine?
- Mda… oricum devenea stresanta. Ma suna toata ziua ca unde si cu cine sunt, sa nu beau, sa nu fumez. Ma enerva…
- Deci i-ai frant inima pentru ca ii pasa de tine? Pentru ca nu vrea sa te piarda?
- Pai… mereu plange daca zic ceva siropos sau la un film. E prea sensibila, omule.
- Deci i-ai frant inima pentru ca are sentimente? Pentru ca voia sa te auda cum ii spui ca o iubesti?
- Ei bine, devenea repede geloasa. Nu puteam nici sa vorbesc cu alte fete, trebuia sa ma ascund de ea.
- Deci i-ai frant inima pentru ca voia sa fi doar al ei? Credea ca esti de incredere, dar tu ai mintit, iar ea putea afla mai tarziu si putea sa sufere mai mult. Ea isi dorea doar ca baiatul pe care ea il iubeste sa o iubeasca doar pe ea.
- Dar…
- Te-ai despartit de ea pentru ca e prea buna pentru tine? Pentru ca iti voia doar binele? Ea e terminata acum pentru ca tu esti egoist. Mandru?
- I-am frant inima pentru ca.. nu stiam ce se intampla. Ce se intampla cu mine, frate?
- Ai pierdut fata care te-a iubit cum niciuna nu o va mai face. Vezi? Tu nu ai vrut-o pe ea, dar ea te-a vrut doar pe tine.
Monday, April 2, 2012
Shinigami
And Death came to him and said: how many hearts you broke, how many souls you shattered from the very edge of life ?
No heart i broke nor soul i shattered he said.
Then Death said to him: Then i cannot touch you. For now, but listen to me closely i will watch you, one mistake and i shall take your soul to the inferno and shall make you suffer for eternity, but don't think i will let you live happy your heart and soul will be broken and shattered in small pieces of dust until nothing remains in you but hate and sorrow, your closest friends will betray you, every single person will ask for your life but you wont be able to give it, because it's my and i shall be the only to take it from you.
I will endure then, i will let my heart be broken my soul be shattered until nothing remains but listen closely to me Death! I won't give up on my believes no matter how many things you will do to me. And in the end, i will be the one to come for you! - By Chrono The Sinner
No heart i broke nor soul i shattered he said.
Then Death said to him: Then i cannot touch you. For now, but listen to me closely i will watch you, one mistake and i shall take your soul to the inferno and shall make you suffer for eternity, but don't think i will let you live happy your heart and soul will be broken and shattered in small pieces of dust until nothing remains in you but hate and sorrow, your closest friends will betray you, every single person will ask for your life but you wont be able to give it, because it's my and i shall be the only to take it from you.
I will endure then, i will let my heart be broken my soul be shattered until nothing remains but listen closely to me Death! I won't give up on my believes no matter how many things you will do to me. And in the end, i will be the one to come for you! - By Chrono The Sinner
Sunday, April 1, 2012
Myself.
And here i am again writing my soul on the paper, well literally a paper tough who was supposed to be here and read it is not. I am myself in a world full of cold hearts tough is not so bad but i can't seem to warm any it, been working hard on this but 'No' is what i get. So why its keep goin on like this, il never get it. Being myself is stupidly hard while being someone else would be so damn easy but what for, a lie ? I don't want to live a life of lie, to be someone who i never was to be the thing' others want's me to i am myself and you'll never get to understand. Im showing it like a open book open the file and start reading you'll know everything as i wont hide anything. You want to know ? Ask. is that simple but i wonder will you accept the truth or you will want a lie ? supposing not but sometimes you do and now when i think about it sometimes i rather accept lies that truth but i wont lie, i wont do it for you or for anyone else, and when it will happen that i do it, then i am desperate to keep you. But no. That's not myself, that's someone else a shadow that entered my soul and will leave soon writing all this nonsense on the paper tough it makes sense to me wish it would make sense to you in the same way but im smiling and you know you're smiling to when reading all this stuff, why you're doing it ? You don't know its not fun what you're reading but you do for some reasons, you've been here before in same thing in same situation maybe you changed, if you did. Then you did wrong.
Thursday, March 29, 2012
Tuesday, March 27, 2012
Povestea unui suflet
De ce e cerul albastru si ziua nu sunt stele?
De ce cand nu esti langa mine, sunt reci lacrimile mele?
Ma-ntreb... de ce inca te iubesc,
De ce ma gandesc la tine cand m-ai facut sa te urasc?
De ce cand ma uit la luna parca o vad cum plange?
De ce stelele cad, de ce inima mi se frange?
De ce nu ma pot uita la soare cand rasare?
De ce vreau sa alerg cand nu mai am picioare?
Vad plopi clatinandu-se din cauza vantului,
Frunze care cad in voia destinului,
Oameni care plang si-si blesteama soarta,
Vad fluturii stropiti cand incepe ploaia;
O multime de flori care cad pe camp,
O multime de lacrimi in care ma scufund,
Cateva vorbe dulci ce mi-au ramas ca amintire,
Cateva sperante... m-au facut sa cred in tine.
Doar un singur gand ce zboara peste mari
Cu doua aripi rupte se intalta spre cer;
O singura inima, un singur suflet ranit
Intr-o lupta cu viata si cu tot ce am iubit.
De ce exista seceta si distruge tot in cale?
Cu ce trebuie sa ud samburele fericii tale?
De ce nu ma regasesc printre locurile frumoase,
Cum se gasesc ghioceii doar in luna lui marte?
De ce nu mai am nimic si toate au disparut in zare?
De ce cand inchid ochii, ma cuprind rafale...
Rafale de vanturi si picaturi de ploaie?
De ce ma uit pa cer si curcubeul nu apare?
De ce nu mai am rabdare sa fiu ca inainte?
De ce m-ai abandonat si m-ai lasat singur pe lume?
De ce primavara copacii infloresc?
De ce nici macar atunci nu pot sa zambesc?
De ce furnicile n-au gura sa se vaite
Cand in picioare de oameni ele sunt calcate?
De ce pestii traiesc in adancurile oceanelor?
De ce oamenii se feresc de rautatea oamenilor?
De ce au fost razboaie si au pierit suflete
Cand astazi nu se inteleg nici frate cu fratele?
De ce la tara oamenii inca sunt simpli si modesti
Cand la oras ti-e frica din casa ta sa iesi?
De ce cad avioane si se scufunda vapoare?
De ce s-au racit si sentimentele tale?
Vreau doar sa te am si sa ma bucur ca traiesc.
Printre-atatea nenorociri vreau doar sa te iubesc.
Acum inchid ochii si vreau sa pasesc in viata,
Dar simt cum o mana de mine se agata.
Simt ca nu ma lasa sa am dreptu' la fericire;
Ma-ntreb daca toate-acestea inseamna ceva pentru tïne...
De ce cand nu esti langa mine, sunt reci lacrimile mele?
Ma-ntreb... de ce inca te iubesc,
De ce ma gandesc la tine cand m-ai facut sa te urasc?
De ce cand ma uit la luna parca o vad cum plange?
De ce stelele cad, de ce inima mi se frange?
De ce nu ma pot uita la soare cand rasare?
De ce vreau sa alerg cand nu mai am picioare?
Vad plopi clatinandu-se din cauza vantului,
Frunze care cad in voia destinului,
Oameni care plang si-si blesteama soarta,
Vad fluturii stropiti cand incepe ploaia;
O multime de flori care cad pe camp,
O multime de lacrimi in care ma scufund,
Cateva vorbe dulci ce mi-au ramas ca amintire,
Cateva sperante... m-au facut sa cred in tine.
Doar un singur gand ce zboara peste mari
Cu doua aripi rupte se intalta spre cer;
O singura inima, un singur suflet ranit
Intr-o lupta cu viata si cu tot ce am iubit.
De ce exista seceta si distruge tot in cale?
Cu ce trebuie sa ud samburele fericii tale?
De ce nu ma regasesc printre locurile frumoase,
Cum se gasesc ghioceii doar in luna lui marte?
De ce nu mai am nimic si toate au disparut in zare?
De ce cand inchid ochii, ma cuprind rafale...
Rafale de vanturi si picaturi de ploaie?
De ce ma uit pa cer si curcubeul nu apare?
De ce nu mai am rabdare sa fiu ca inainte?
De ce m-ai abandonat si m-ai lasat singur pe lume?
De ce primavara copacii infloresc?
De ce nici macar atunci nu pot sa zambesc?
De ce furnicile n-au gura sa se vaite
Cand in picioare de oameni ele sunt calcate?
De ce pestii traiesc in adancurile oceanelor?
De ce oamenii se feresc de rautatea oamenilor?
De ce au fost razboaie si au pierit suflete
Cand astazi nu se inteleg nici frate cu fratele?
De ce la tara oamenii inca sunt simpli si modesti
Cand la oras ti-e frica din casa ta sa iesi?
De ce cad avioane si se scufunda vapoare?
De ce s-au racit si sentimentele tale?
Vreau doar sa te am si sa ma bucur ca traiesc.
Printre-atatea nenorociri vreau doar sa te iubesc.
Acum inchid ochii si vreau sa pasesc in viata,
Dar simt cum o mana de mine se agata.
Simt ca nu ma lasa sa am dreptu' la fericire;
Ma-ntreb daca toate-acestea inseamna ceva pentru tïne...
Sunday, March 25, 2012
22 March
"Trust your heart if the seas catch fire. Live by love though the stars walk backwards"
-E.E. Cummings
-E.E. Cummings
25 - Two -
Wearing a mask in society is not always the right thing to do, but
however for some is needed, some people reveals them self by simple
giving all their trust, others instead are hiding it because they do
know it, showing reality hurts. But i will keep on showing my reality
because i am the only getting hurt - By M. Filip
P.S: - End -
P.S: - End -
Thursday, March 22, 2012
~Dubstep sesion started~
Unfitting music for the previous posts in my blog =)) i know that but you sure gonna enjoy it :P
Party starts.
Party starts.
Tuesday, March 20, 2012
"Suflet slab" - Complet...
Iubirea ce o caut oare să nu fie în această lume?
Am tot încercat dar iubirea nu am găsit
Probabil că există undeva ascunsă .. oare unde în lume?
De atâtea ori m-am înşelat
Crezând că iubirea am găsit
Dar nu era nimic decât un crud fals
Care inima mi-a frânt
Dar mă jur că de-o găsesc
Cu inima deschisă am să o primesc
Şi niciodată n-am să renunţ
Iubirea să îi o arăt chiar de viaţa am să-nfrunt.
................................................................................................
Am gasit- asa am vrut sa cred,
Dar soarta opusul imi dovedi,
Am luptat pana la capat oferindu-mi sufletul fraged,
M-am aruncat inainte fara a ma gandi,
Iarasi sufar, plang de dor,
Inima slaba, suflet slab,
Umbra a dragostei.. ce gand amagitor.
- M. Filip
Time.
Time will constantly try to catch up with you... and with a
roar, it will overcome you.
Do not look ahead. Hope only lies within the unforeseeable,
current that will close in from behind. Now i get it. Why is everyone so afraid of seeing future. But i am not.. i am different.. and, i always wondered why future is the only one giving me hope maybe that's how its supposed to be ? But knowing future there will be no surprise so people surprisingly are getting scared or maybe even bored because they know how that life will be maybe even is not how they wanted to be, but then i ask myself why do we have dreams for ? Why are those even included in our life if we aren't supposed to follow those dreams huh ? And why when we share those dreams with others they get scared and leave us ? I never truly understand this. As for me, knowing someone close to me dream would just help me fulfill it, nothing else. Now catching up with my own words "Hope only lies within the unforeseeable" Do i even think of those words as mine ? Or maybe as someone words.. but the weird thing is that is not true for me but for others is true because you can't "Hope" for what you can't see maybe some yes they do and that's why i came up with it "surprises" are giving a special beat to your heart, a beat of excitement that makes you happy for unknown reasons to yourself its called "Adrenaline" that moment when your brain can't understand what's going on for real and he starts pumping this adrenaline thing into your system, making you feel something completely new, but is not "something new" at all, because you felt it before haven't you ? But except that from a different person. From a different stuff, from a game, from a good meal that you never tasted, from a fun thing you never did and even from something dangerous that happened. Why ? Is that simple, brain comprehends anything he can't understand as danger. But once he gets to completely "Know" that not understanding thing, he no longer does that. And this is when the excitement goes off. You start to get bored. Maybe even annoyed. The game you used to play because it was fun is now over ? Yes it is.. because it no longer surprises you. THERE is completely NOTHING that could make you feel fun. That's why people tends to go from other people to other people, they're looking for that "excitement" feeling without even knowing and because of that? What they do. Well... they start thinking of the person's they left behind as "things" and not as "souls" which is a huge difference a "thing" cant be broken if you leave it behind because it has simply no soul.. you can throw it you can smash it but it does not feel anything. But what about a soul ? What your Soul would do if someone leaves you behind? It would cry? Yes. It would hurt all day? Yes. It would ask himself forever why he deserve that kind of stuff? Yes. It would want you back even tough you hurt him that bad? Yes.. and why ? Because the only thing that would repair that damage is the same person who did it.. mom used to say.. now she doesn't anymore because she stop caring .."When you do some damage to something or someone the only person who can fix it is you and nobody else." those are words of truth.. yes maybe some other person that will start to care about you might bring you a bit of happiness maybe even try to heal your soul but truly now.. nobody except the person you felt love from and now you feel anger, pain and hate even, can truly repair the damage.. the scar is there the pain is there. everything is there even the love that you felt and well the heart is in hunger for that love so it can heal herself and not feel the other emotions. i am a person with strong feelings.. for everything, when i feel love i feel it, when i feel pain i feel it, when i feel hate i feel it, when i am upset my whole body is showing it and the same with the other feelings. I don't know how many other people in this world are the same because nobody truly showed me what they feel, i always showed, for the simple reason i can't control not showing those but however i could keep on writing here all day long because i simply can't control my toughs, that's me, that's Chrono The Sinner- but one last words: things you should never break ? .. well first of all hearts.. then promises also dreams and well fate others had in you.. because it fucking hurts like hell. I never got bored of a person.. because for the simple fact i can't. You aren't supposed to need the person only when she's/he's fun you're supposed to need that person for the simple fact. She needs you. And when she stops doing it ? You gonna start needing her. Why ? Because you miss the time when she truly needed you and you wonder now. Why. And what truly time means ? Nothing. It's a thing that deceives you to think you "don't" have time to do things for you, make time, don't let time Make You. Comment if you read all. And if you agree especially :)
Monday, March 19, 2012
Why do i always take the hard road? Because there's no other.
The first time I read these two lines, my mind stopped full in track, in new recollection of something I've always known unconsciously, and usually in full awareness (though not always fully enacted, I admit). People don't necessarily see things as I do; I didn't stop to cogently consider that maybe, just maybe, they had no option revealed to them but what they had enacted in life.
These
words are so true yet i am silly i do take the hard road because i
don't work hard enough to see the easy road :) But what if there for me
is no easy road at all ? That's how i see the stuff at least .. however
taking this road will always hurt me .. i wonder what will happen in the
very end how i will end up.. who i will end up with.. why i will end up
with that person.. and not how i wanted is just because i did it the
hard way ? I don't know.. maybe, but i don't know other way. However no
one will ever see the things like i do because I will never see the
things in their way. And why ? Because i am Unique, like every other
person in this world should be.
Saturday, March 17, 2012
12 Decembrie - 6 Martie
Probabil.. cele mai frumoase momente din viata mea.. ma intreb cateodata daca si pentru tine a fost la fel.. dar nu am sa aflu niciodata asta ... :-<
Asa sa terminat o poveste frumoasa de dragoste care a durat doar 85 de zile.. eu visam sa dureze o eternitate :) probabil sa imi petrec toata viata alaturi de tine.. si speram sa ai acelasi vis.. probabil lai avut la un moment dat.. dar sa pierdut in intuneric, in griji si in teama oricum..cuvintele nu te mai intorc inapoi, dar macar pot scrie ce simt pe pagina asta goala si singuratica de blog, la fel ca mine de astfel, inima mea inca sufera si o sa o faca mereu.. findca din pacate pentru mine inca te iubeste si vrea sa iti simta inima langa ea golul care il simte langa probabil e locul unde a odata a fost inima ta, a trecut deja 11 zile si ma gandesc in continuu la tine.. ma intreb oare tu la cine te gandesti ? Iti e dor de mine ? Iti mai amintesti de mine ? Iti mai amintesti ca vream sa te fac fericita si atata tot, dar.. vream sa te vad fericita.. langa mine..findca altfel nu puteam simti fericire.. de asta am fost egoist.. si nu am vrut sa renunt in ruptul capului.. senzatia ca vreau sa mor nu se duce indiferent ce fac.. lipseste parca o bucata mare din sufletul meu care ma intreb daca mai exista.. iar, ochi mei au inceput sa isi schimbe incet incet culoare intr-un caprui frumos si ma intreb oare cate lacrimi mai trebuie sa vars pana ce inima mea o sa inceteze sa bata atat de puternic de parca ar vrea sa imi sparga pieptul sa iasa si sa se duca sa te vada, sunt o persoana ciudata, o persoana ciudata care si-ar fi dat viata pentru tine doar daca iai fi cerut-o, o persoana ciudata care te iubeste atat de mult dar.. care e singura. De ce ? Am sa ma intreb toata viata asta.. dar probabil e mult prea tarziu.. nici macar prietenie nu mai simti fata de mine si nici macar asta nu iti pot cere simt parca ca imi e scris sa mor singur, inima mea din cand in cand incepe sa spere iar atunci devine putin fericita, dar dupa cateva momente speranta moare si incepe iar sa doara adanc ca si cum un cutit e infipt adanc in pieptul meu si e rasucit incet de o mana invisibila care vrea sa imi ia viata fara un motiv anume, astept ziua in care .. o sa pot fi fericit din nou.. nu stiu cand o sa vina.. daca o sa vina.. dar nu pot face altceva decat sa o astept.. si probabil ziua aceea nu o sa vina niciodata dar.. e singurul lucru care imi da un anumit motiv sa traiesc in momentele astea, si chiar sper ca ultima mea speranta sa nu se duca si totusi.. stiu clar ca persoana care ma poate face cu adevarat fericit. Nu are sa mai vina inapoi vreodata. Inima mea sta acolo unde ii e locul. Unde a iubit, unde a simtit iubire, si unde ..nu mai e nevoie de mine.
Friday, March 16, 2012
Remember ?
Remember when I texted you the first time?
Remember the first time you texted me?
Remember the first time you smiled to me?
Remember the first time we talked?
Remember when you said you like me?
Remember the first time we went for a walk?
Remember our first hug?
Remember how you make me laugh?
Remember how you kissed me for the first time?
Remember when i first said i love you?
Remember when you first said you love me?
Remember how i made you happy?
Remember when you first said you will stay forever?
Remember when i first said i will stay forever?
Remember when i said you're beautiful?
Remember when you said i am yours?
Remember when...?
Wednesday, March 14, 2012
For the one
e ciudat.. stiu ca probabil nu ai sa citesti niciodata asta dar... imi pare rau. Imi pare rau ca nu am fost puternic atunci cand a fost nevoie iar neputinta mea ne-a adus pe amandoi aici.. sti .. prima data cand am ajuns sa avem discutia asta chiar iti parea rau ca o faci si chiar vreai sa nu.. dar eu nu am fost puternic indeajuns sa te las sa o faci si sa iti dau spatiul necesar.. "baka" scrie pe fruntea mea :D am tot incercat sa dau vina pe alte persoane dar nu e asa e vina mea in total :D nici macar vina ta nu e :D mereu o sa imi fie dor de tine, esti minunata orice ai spune sper doar sa nu fi suparata pe mine intotdeauna fiindca chiar imi e dor sa vorbesc cu tine asa cum o faceam inainte :D poate nu ca inainte dar scrisul tau ma face fericit xD e ciudat mereu visez ca vorbesc cu tine ba la telefon ba prin sms-uri, si mereu stiu ca esti tu findca e sigur ca esti tu :D:D sti.. acum ma simt bine, chiar ma simt ok findca stiu sigur ca nu mai ranit, inima mea e intreaga acolo unde trebuie sa fie :P niciodata nu te poti rani singur orice iti faci xD iar eu sunt ala care a sa ranit singur de asta durerea a trecut si a ramas doar ce mi-ai oferit inainte :D poti spune ca sunt idiot poti spune orice, se accepta, niciodata nu am sa uit nimic fiindca a fost prea frumos ca sa vreau sa uit iar tu o sa ai intotdeauna locul tau in inima mea orice ai spune si chiar daca nu o sa ai nevoie de el. El ramane acolo la pastrare, findca doar persoana careia ii apartine poate sa il ia :D
Be happy, live healthy, love the ones who loves you, don't hate the ones who hates you, try to do as much good and no bad things, be who you are be the happy person you were when i meet you.
Yours, and always yours,
Filip-
Be happy, live healthy, love the ones who loves you, don't hate the ones who hates you, try to do as much good and no bad things, be who you are be the happy person you were when i meet you.
Yours, and always yours,
Filip-
Wednesday, February 22, 2012
Late night....

You wonder why i write this well is not really important but i do feel like doing it, wonder who would not want to have a peace that lasts without storms, wars, cold, rain and even chaos. Trust me .. all wants this :) but it's hard to achieve you gotta work on it and not let go this week was harsh to me.. more than i expected and very painful and a part of it was my fault because i am a curios guy the kind of curios guy that dies fast and yeah i use to die a lot because of my own fault.. maybe sometime i will die for real because of this as well but.. i don't want to .. truth is as long i can feel that wonderful thing called love, i cannot die. Because i want to love as well... maybe to much but that's me a silly boy that's doing troubles, well yeah i am stupid :)) and what kept me from not dying yet ? It's her, she doesn't know to well but it's her fault i am not dead yet call me names call me however you want but i know this thing. I found someone worth fighting for and i am not willing to give up. Unless that someone gives up on me.. which i really hope it's not gonna happen why i want this ? Because i love her, maybe i am suffocating her with my love.. but it's pure love. I can't do nothing but try to hold back.. which is really tough for me well enough for now i could write pages and pages of stuff that is going trough my mind but is to much.. even for paper to handle.
I'm a bad kid .. i will survive until then, because there's no after.
Tuesday, February 21, 2012
Just Toughs

We ask our self what we gonna do in future, we may think that hoping is not enough sometimes but well i can tell it is having hopes means having dreams and having dreams means getting the dream come true in time, not having any dream at all and just letting the faith play with your life is wrong. Life is meant to be lived to have dreams to fulfill them and fight for it, but in the moment you give up a dream you loose something and you will feel a bit of disappointment maybe regret and even fear because you failed to do it. It is weird life is weird and things can be done only if you fight for it standing in your bed and trying to do something wont work. Life is supposed to have a cycle of course we are not supposed to follow this and some are even afraid of doing it, because yes, it is boring and is the following: Childhood, School, Work, Family+Work, Family, until end. But people that are not supposed to work don't have a thing we do have: They cannot smile because of real happiness if they do is a fake smile, having everything on a table without requiring you to work for it does not giving you any feeling of fulfillment, that's how our silly brain is created tough that you're supposed to be happy for what you have just because you have it. There is a word that is true and i doubt any of you gonna say that is not real and is "After each calm there's a storm coming, after each storm there's a calm coming" this is the story of my life because after each good thing there was storm and then calm and so on because you can't feel happiness and you cannot umm how to say it you can't care enough for what you have unless you're at one step away from loosing it. That's why remember this, life is an up and down you make your own faith only if are strong enough to fight with the whole world and i doubt any of you reading this post is weak. Also, past never matters as long there is future ahead and present in front of you, and yes is that easy.
I'm just a kid in a huge world that's fighting everything and everyone without giving up.
- Chrono The Sinner
Sunday, February 19, 2012
Unwritten
What’s love i was asked once
I could’ not answer not at all
Back then i haven’t know
It was years of attempts
And months of silly pain
But that was past that passed away,
It was long gone since i meet you
I dont know how to describe my words
To say for real what i feel for you
But i can tell you are my heaven
You can make me happy in seconds
And you can do stuff that i can’t do in years
And that’s why you have my heart
Once i swore to my heart,
That if i find someone
That will love me the way you do
I will open my heart to let you in
I will protect it with all my strenght
And i will never quit to show my love
Even if il have to face up life for that.
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)