You wonder why i write this well is not really important but i do feel like doing it, wonder who would not want to have a peace that lasts without storms, wars, cold, rain and even chaos. Trust me .. all wants this :) but it's hard to achieve you gotta work on it and not let go this week was harsh to me.. more than i expected and very painful and a part of it was my fault because i am a curios guy the kind of curios guy that dies fast and yeah i use to die a lot because of my own fault.. maybe sometime i will die for real because of this as well but.. i don't want to .. truth is as long i can feel that wonderful thing called love, i cannot die. Because i want to love as well... maybe to much but that's me a silly boy that's doing troubles, well yeah i am stupid :)) and what kept me from not dying yet ? It's her, she doesn't know to well but it's her fault i am not dead yet call me names call me however you want but i know this thing. I found someone worth fighting for and i am not willing to give up. Unless that someone gives up on me.. which i really hope it's not gonna happen why i want this ? Because i love her, maybe i am suffocating her with my love.. but it's pure love. I can't do nothing but try to hold back.. which is really tough for me well enough for now i could write pages and pages of stuff that is going trough my mind but is to much.. even for paper to handle.
I'm a bad kid .. i will survive until then, because there's no after.
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