Time.

Time will constantly try to catch up with you... and with a roar, it will overcome you.

Do not look ahead. Hope only lies within the unforeseeable, current that will close in from behind. Now i get it. Why is everyone so afraid of seeing future. But i am not.. i am different.. and, i always wondered why future is the only one giving me hope maybe that's how its supposed to be ? But knowing future there will be no surprise so people surprisingly are getting scared or maybe even bored because they know how that life will be maybe even is not how they wanted to be, but then i ask myself why do we have dreams for ? Why are those even included in our life if we aren't supposed to follow those dreams huh ? And why when we share those dreams with others they get scared and leave us ? I never truly understand this. As for me, knowing someone close to me dream would just help me fulfill it, nothing else. Now catching up with my own words "Hope only lies within the unforeseeable" Do i even think of those words as mine ? Or maybe as someone words.. but the weird thing is that is not true for me but for others is true because you can't "Hope" for what you can't see maybe some yes they do and that's why i came up with it "surprises" are giving a special beat to your heart, a beat of excitement that makes you happy for unknown reasons to yourself its called "Adrenaline" that moment when your brain can't understand what's going on for real and he starts pumping this adrenaline thing into your system, making you feel something completely new, but is not "something new" at all, because you felt it before haven't you ? But except that from a different person. From a different stuff, from a game, from a good meal that you never tasted, from  a fun thing you never did and even from something dangerous that happened. Why ? Is that simple, brain comprehends anything he can't understand as danger. But once he gets to completely "Know" that not understanding thing, he no longer does that. And this is when the excitement goes off. You start to get bored. Maybe even annoyed. The game you used to play because it was fun is now over ? Yes it is.. because it no longer surprises you. THERE is completely NOTHING that could make you feel fun. That's why people tends to go from other people to other people, they're looking for that "excitement" feeling without even knowing and because of that? What they do. Well... they start thinking of the person's they left behind as "things" and not as "souls" which is a huge difference a "thing" cant be broken if you leave it behind because it has simply no soul.. you can throw it you can smash it but it does not feel anything. But what about a soul ? What your Soul would do if someone leaves you behind? It would cry? Yes. It would hurt all day? Yes. It would ask himself forever why he deserve that kind of stuff? Yes. It would want you  back even tough you hurt him that bad? Yes.. and why ? Because the only thing that would repair that damage is the same person who did it.. mom used to say.. now she doesn't anymore because she stop caring .."When you do some damage to something or someone  the only person who can fix it is you and nobody else." those are words of truth.. yes maybe some other person that will start to care about you might bring you a bit of happiness maybe even try to heal your soul but truly now.. nobody except the person you felt love from and now you feel anger, pain and hate even, can truly repair the damage.. the scar is there the pain is there. everything is there even the love that you felt  and well the heart is in hunger for that love so it can heal herself and not feel the other emotions. i am a person with strong feelings.. for everything, when i feel love i feel it, when i feel pain i feel it, when i feel hate i feel it, when i am upset my whole body is showing it and the same with the other feelings. I don't know how many other people in this world are the same because nobody truly showed me what they feel, i always showed, for the simple reason i can't control not showing those but however i could keep on writing here all day long because i simply can't control my toughs, that's me, that's Chrono The Sinner- but one last words: things you should never break ? .. well first of all hearts.. then promises also dreams and well fate others had in you.. because it fucking hurts like hell. I never got bored of a person.. because for the simple fact i can't. You aren't supposed to need the person only when she's/he's fun you're supposed to need that person for the simple fact. She needs you. And when she stops doing it ? You gonna start needing her. Why ? Because you miss the time when she truly needed you and you wonder now. Why. And what truly time means ? Nothing. It's a thing that deceives you to think you "don't" have time to do things for you, make time, don't let time Make You. Comment if you read all. And if you agree especially :)