Late night....

You wonder why i write this well is not really important but i do feel like doing it, wonder who would not want to have a peace that lasts without storms, wars, cold, rain and even chaos. Trust me .. all wants this :) but it's hard to achieve you gotta work on it and not let go this week was harsh to me.. more than i expected and very painful and a part of it was my fault because i am a curios guy the kind of curios guy that dies fast and yeah i use to die a lot because of my own fault.. maybe sometime i will die for real because of this as well but.. i don't want to .. truth is as long i can feel that wonderful thing called love, i cannot die. Because i want to love as well... maybe to much but that's me a silly boy that's doing troubles, well yeah i am stupid :)) and what kept me from not dying yet ? It's her, she doesn't know to well but it's her fault i am not dead yet call me names call me however you want but i know this thing. I found someone worth fighting for and i am not willing to give up. Unless that someone gives up on me.. which i really hope it's not gonna happen why i want this ? Because i love her, maybe i am suffocating her with my love.. but it's pure love. I can't do nothing but try to hold back.. which is really tough for me well enough for now i could write pages and pages of stuff that is going trough my mind but is to much.. even for paper to handle.

I'm a bad kid .. i will survive until then, because there's no after.

Just Toughs

We ask our self what we gonna do in future, we may think that hoping is not enough sometimes but well i can tell it is having hopes means having dreams and having dreams means getting the dream come true in time, not having any dream at all and just letting the faith play with your life is wrong. Life is meant to be lived to have dreams to fulfill them and fight for it, but in the moment you give up a dream you loose something and you will feel a bit of disappointment maybe regret and even fear because you failed to do it. It is weird life is weird and things can be done only if you fight for it standing in your bed and trying to do something wont work. Life is supposed to have a cycle of course we are not supposed to follow this and some are even afraid of doing it, because yes, it is boring and is the following: Childhood, School, Work, Family+Work, Family, until end. But people that are not supposed to work don't have a thing we do have: They cannot smile because of real happiness if they do is a fake smile, having everything on a table without requiring you to work for it does not giving you any feeling of fulfillment, that's how our silly brain is created tough that you're supposed to be happy for what you have just because you have it. There is a word that is true and i doubt any of you gonna say that is not real and is "After each calm there's a storm coming, after each storm there's a calm coming" this is the story of my life because after each good thing there was storm and then calm and so on because you can't feel happiness and you cannot umm how to say it you can't care enough for what you have unless you're at one step away from loosing it. That's why remember this, life is an up and down you make your own faith only if are strong enough to fight with the whole world and i doubt any of you reading this post is weak. Also, past never matters as long there is future ahead and present in front of you, and yes is that easy.

I'm just a kid in a huge world that's fighting everything and everyone without giving up.

- Chrono The Sinner

Unwritten

What’s love i was asked once

I could’ not answer not at all

Back then i haven’t know

It was years of attempts

And months of silly pain

But that was past that passed away,

It was long gone since i meet you

I dont know how to describe my words

To say for real what i feel for you

But i can tell you are my heaven

You can make me happy in seconds

And you can do stuff that i can’t do in years

And that’s why you have my heart

Once i swore to my heart,

That if i find someone

That will love me the way you do

I will open my heart to let you in

I will protect it with all my strenght

And i will never quit to show my love

Even if il have to face up life for that.